Why I gave up Diet Coke & other things

Aren’t we all so cute with our New Year’s resolutions! We are all gung ho for about two months then it’s back to the same old same old. But we made an effort so we don’t feel completely bad about ourselves until December 31 of that year and we make the same old resolution again. I do the same thing every year. Last year I strived to be fabulous for 40th birthday May 25. By May 26 fabulous turned to “still not bad for her age” by December 31, I was at the “she really let herself go” phase. I saw the New Years pictures guys, there is no denying that fact! Okay I had help with letting myself go. Some things went down at work and I didn’t handle them so well. And then my body decided that it was going to shut down. This is one of the many joys of having an autoimmune condition. If you don’t mind your body, your body will turn on you. And boy did it turn! I ditched the gym, didn’t really watch what I was eating or drinking and blamed stressed. Stress isn’t a good excuse, the fact is : I WAS MORE STRESSED BECAUSE I WASN’T TAKING CARE OF MYSELF! Wow there is a concept! Well my body which is fatter and less healthy then ever decided that I am no longer capable of making sound decision for myself. So it send me these singles like weight gain, headaches, joint pain, hair loss, etc. that tells me, enough is enough. I have to get back to that girl that two years ago dropped thirty pounds and felt great, she only had a few bouts with her illness and was able to rally quickly. I have to be that girl because I am truly terrified of what will happen to me if I don’t. On January 1, I didn’t make a resolution I made a list of all the things that I know I need to change in my life. I am taking the inside out approach. I have to clean or Detox myself of a few things that may help trigger my illness. Yes I gave up booze, and today I made the sacrifice of my beloved Diet Coke. Other things I have to give up for 28 days include, dairy, eggs, soy, gluten, peanuts, corn and sugar. Not sure how all that is going to work but hey, if it keeps my hair from falling out and my joints from aching, I am all game! I went Diet Cokeless for over a year, I did feel better from just giving that up. I didn't have the aches and pains like I did before when I was drinking 32 oz a day of it. After I lost all the weight the year before, I thought what could Diet Coke hurt? My body, that's what it hurts! It isn’t just what I put into my body that needs clean out, it’s some of the negativity I seem to have in certain circumstances. I am generally sarcastic but I can be a bitch sometimes, shocking to many I know! I need to turn the page when it comes to how I handle situations, especially dealing with my family. My poor kiddos have bore the wrath of mom for too long. That isn’t to say I still won’t be sarcastic, just not negative sarcastic! Eventually I will get to the outside thing but I think I better stew on the insides for a while, I mean I did give up booze and Diet Coke for Pete’s sake, there is only so much change one person can take all at once! But I will get there!